Mulligan?

If I could live my life over again, what would I do differently?

I’ve been asking myself this question a lot lately. The last two years have consisted of countless changes in my life, a lot of evolution, and, as a result, a substantial amount of introspection.

While my list of regrets is long, I am not sure how many choices I would take back. So many of my bad decisions have molded and shaped the woman I am today …would I want to take them back?

There are people I occasionally wish I’d never met, but when I really think about it, I needed them in my life. Perhaps the role I let them play was too crucial, too impactful, but I needed their influence to push me to change and grow. They were the catalyst, the stepping stone in a process of transformation I needed to undergo, as painful as it was at points.

Yes, the dream of a mulligan sits in the back of mind; the unrealistic ideal of wiping the mind clean of people, of events, and of actions I wish I’d never experienced, but I know that each of them shaped the woman I am today. So while my regrets are numerous, my desire to change them are few.

If you could relive your life, what would you do differently?

Introspective today,

~ Victoria Elizabeth

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One thought on “Mulligan?

  1. I have found, and you may find a way, “of wiping the mind clean of people, of events and of actions.” None of that is truly gone, but it is less immediate and more distant. So it is very useful to me. The means by which I do that is getting my mind blank when doing manual labor – gardener, housework, house repair.

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