An Index of My Failures

A

I am not able to forget.
I am not an artist.
I am not an athlete.

B

I am not beautiful.
I am not blossoming.
I am not brainy.
I am not brave.
I am not brawny.

C

I am not crafty.
I am not creative.
I am not curious after all.

D

I am not dainty.
I am not dangerous.

E

I am not edgy.
I am not enough.
I am not exciting.

F

I am not fast.
I am not feminine (enough).
I am not fun.
I am not future.

G

I am not a good cook.
I am not a good driver.
I am not a good friend.
I am not a good liar.
I am not a good lover.
I am not a good person.
I am not good at making beds.
I am not good at shaving: I always miss that spot above my knees.
I am not good at telling jokes.
I am not graceful.

H

I am not helpful.
I am not hurried.

I

I am not impulsive.
I am not innovative.
I am not interesting.

J

I am not justified.

K

I am not a kindred spirit.
I am not kind.
I am not kosher.

L

I am not languid, but my efforts aren’t enough.
I am not leftovers.

M

I am not mature.
I am not malleable.
I am not a mother.
I am not my mother.

N

I am not naive.
I am not noble.
I am not numb, but I wish I were.

O

I am not an open book.

P

I am not perfect.
I am not persuasive.
I am not a poet.
I am not polished.

Q

I am not a quitter, except for when I am.

R

I am not a recluse.
I am not a requirement.
I am not restrained.
I am not right.

S

I am not a singer.
I am not a soldier.
I am not strong.

T

I am not talented.
I am not tall.
I am not thin.
I am not thoughtful.

U

I am not understood.

V

I am not victorious (despite the namesake).

W

I am not whole.
I am not worth it.

X

I am not xenophobic, but I want to be alone.

Y

I am not young.
I am not you.
I am not yours.

Z

I am not zealous anymore.
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Thank you for reading,

Victoria Elizabeth