New Story: An Index of My Failures

An Index of My Failures

A

I am not able to forget.
I am not an artist.
I am not an athlete.

B

I am not beautiful.
I am not blossoming.
I am not brainy.
I am not brave.
I am not brawny.

C

I am not crafty.
I am not creative.
I am not curious after all.

D

I am not dainty.
I am not dangerous.

E

I am not edgy.
I am not enough.
I am not exciting.

F

I am not fast.
I am not feminine (enough).
I am not fun.
I am not future.

G

I am not a good cook.
I am not a good driver.
I am not a good friend.
I am not a good liar.
I am not a good lover.
I am not a good person.
I am not good at making beds.
I am not good at shaving: I always miss that spot above my knees.
I am not good at telling jokes.
I am not graceful.

H

I am not helpful.
I am not hurried.

I

I am not impulsive.
I am not innovative.
I am not interesting.

J

I am not justified.

K

I am not a kindred spirit.
I am not kind.
I am not kosher.

L

I am not languid, but my efforts aren’t enough.
I am not leftovers.

M

I am not mature.
I am not malleable.
I am not a mother.
I am not my mother.

N

I am not naive.
I am not noble.
I am not numb, but I wish I were.

O

I am not an open book.

P

I am not perfect.
I am not persuasive.
I am not a poet.
I am not polished.

Q

I am not a quitter, except for when I am.

R

I am not a recluse.
I am not a requirement.
I am not restrained.
I am not right.

S

I am not a singer.
I am not a soldier.
I am not strong.

T

I am not talented.
I am not tall.
I am not thin.
I am not thoughtful.

U

I am not understood.

V

I am not victorious (despite the namesake).

W

I am not whole.
I am not worth it.

X

I am not xenophobic, but I want to be alone.

Y

I am not young.
I am not you.
I am not yours.

Z

I am not zealous anymore.
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Thank you for reading,

Victoria Elizabeth

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4 thoughts on “New Story: An Index of My Failures

  1. Girl! Everyone is and isn’t those things, depending on the day, month, year, company they are around. We are all shifting and learning. You have accomplished so much, you are talented and smart, and you have many friends. Maybe this was just an exercise in rhetoric, but what we all really need to be is more accepting of ourselves and willing to try again to be our best selves — even if we sometimes fail. And don’t we all! Even the Hollywood airbrushed artists and the arrogant who only think they are perfect. Besides, I remember your recipe for brussel sprouts; you are a good cook!!

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