Is it Laziness? Or Energy Storage for the Future?

It’s hard to believe that just three weeks ago I completed my BFA in Creative Writing. After nearly two and a half years and thousands of pages written, I’ve accomplished my goal of completing a second Bachelors.

I had established several grand goals for the weeks following the ceremony, such as reading through a stack of books and working diligently toward completing my novel.

Yeaaaaaah, about that.

Can I tell you how wonderful it is to come home from a long day at work and NOT have to pick up your laptop and do homework?

It’s a beautiful, beautiful thing.

I come home, pour myself a glass of wine, prepare dinner, and enjoy a good book while it cooks. I eat my meal, read some more, hit the gym (if I’m not too full, that is), and then enjoy a long bath with Jack Kerouac, Hunter S. Thompson, F. Scott Fitzgerald, or my beloved Tom Robbins.

My novel is still sitting stagnant, the little word document gathering digital dust on my crowded desktop.

Don’t get me wrong – I’ve been writing: poetry, short stories, articles. I just haven’t gotten the motivation to sit down and really “work” yet.

I know I need to. I have goals to meet and a degree that needs to be put to good use. I’ve just had very little me-time in the past two years and I’m savoring the luxury of no deadlines, no grades, and no expectations.

Fortunately, with the end of the month comes the start of NaNoWriMo, National Novel Writing Month, and a commitment to myself to start and finish a new novel this year. Unlike last year, I have a full outline prepped, a story blueprint mapped out, and the hours in the day to get it done.

So, with less than eight days left until NaNoWriMo begins, I think I’m going to enjoy my laziness a bit longer. Need to conserve energy, you know, for those long nights of writing fury. Yeaaaah. That works.

Well, I’ve got a date with Joseph Conrad’s Heart of Darkness tonight, so I’m optimistic for another non-productive (and glorious) evening!

~ Victoria Elizabeth


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